Delirium[?]

There's nothing on my mind now.
Nothing.
You say "nothing" but you're just saying it.
But i seriously mean it.
Really...

Fine..

Everything's a..
Blur...Haze...Fog.
Void... and then come those FLies.
Damn.

I like to take photographs again.
I like to play the guitar again.
I like to listen to jazz.
[The concert was too good
Watching Hancock and Shorter was like a dream come true]
I like to sing again.
Recently I've been singing the third verse of the School of Rock Song over and over again.
You know the part where the black girl "Tamika" sings her solo..
I love singing that part.
I dont like singing for other people.
I like to sit in the balcony when my parents are out.
Do you feel miserable for no specific reason?
I do.
All the time.
Its a really horrible feeling.
I felt like that some time back. Still am, a bit, but it has died down a bit.
I snap at everybody around me when I'm like that.
I dont like being that way.
But its the only way people at home leave me alone.
Now that..I like.
I dont like justifications all the time.
Damn i love the Blues.
Soul Music.

I never understood "The Hermit and the Rose".
Never.
Not now.
Not ever.
The sight of the light- blue book makes me depressed.
heh.

Da dum da dum da dum.
Water-Melon Man...ta ra ra ra...
I love that song.
Thats the song they ended the concert with.
The members of the Thelonious Monk Institute of Jazz are as good as Hancock and Shorter.
I wanna be good too.
yeah.huh.
ok.

So
A friend of mine wrote a story about a Butcher.
It was a fabulous story.
It began with a quote.
I like the quote..It went like,

"The whole reason the Butcher existed was because he was a parody of all of us. He was a disintegrated shape of things that had happened, and things that were to come. He was a parody of the system. He butchered nobody. We butchered him"
~ Detective Sergeant, Pinkerton, refuses to give his name, Saturday, November 15, 2001.

And i said
There's nothing on my mind now.
And look what was on my mind...
Yeah i'm like everybody as well...
Nothing..Everthing...
Its all the same.
Aint it?

[Photo: Taken on an exceptionally cold but sunny afternoon in the balcony]

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The Christmas/New Year Post

So thats me in my Christmas Hat, people call it The Santa Hat

but i like calling it The Christmas Hat. Another thing is that i cant say Merry Christmas, I like saying Happy Christmas. It must be due to the brititsh movies i've been watching.

Well, Happy Christmas!

Thats Rj in my Christmas Hat. She told me she really wanted one as well
but nobody bought her one, and it was only 20 bucks!
Look how happy she looks!

ok so i had a good christmas
and i had an AMAZING time on the 31st.
and i have bloggers block
and i cant help it.

Things that Happened:

1) Priyasha left school and went to Cambridge.
[as the 12s are leaving as well we dont have a vocalist anymore and now that pri's gone we have one less guitarist....oh this is so great...]

2) Apurva and I got bike rides
[oh my god, it was amazing!]

3) I discovered i have cousins who used to live in Tanzenia who live in cal now and one of them has a drumset so i can go and play it anytime i want to..yay!!

4) I did alot of crazy things that i cannot write here in case my mother checks my blog.

To end the post i would like to show you a very short and badly taken video of Apurva doing her funny dance on 31st night.
WATCH
ENJOY
COMMENT
[oh shes so going to kill me for this]
I'de suggest that you first hit the play button and minimize the window and let the video run once and then hit replay and watch it, that way it doesnt get stuck :)