Shine...

This is the song, that makes me feel everything that should be felt to make life worth living.
i wish i was this song.
yeah.
I wish i WAS this song.

Shine on You Crazy Diamond
Remember when you were young, you shone like the sun.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Now there's a look in your eyes, like black holes in the sky.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
[me]
You were caught on the crossfire of childhood and stardom, blown on the steel breeze.
Come on you target for faraway laughter, come on you stranger, you legend, you martyr,
and shine!
[me]
You reached for the secret too soon, you cried for the moon.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Threatened by shadows at night, and exposed in the light.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Well you wore out your welcome with random precision, rode on the steel breeze.
Come on you raver, you seer of visions, come on you painter, you piper, you prisoner,
and shine!
[me]
Nobody knows where you are, how near or how far.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Pile on many more layers and I'll be joining you there.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
And we'll bask in the shadow of yesterday's triumph, and sail on the steel breeze.
Come on you boy child, you winner and loser, come on you miner for truth and delusion,
and shine!
[ me me me ]

..and that my friend is the truth.

i know everything.
i understand everything.
i know what people think.
the mistakes they make.
i know why they make those mistakes.
the way they feel unnecessary complications.
i know how people think about other people.
i know why people hate things and love things.
i know how they work.
and recently i have been speaking alot of the truth.
its not that i used to lie before, but i never spoke at all.
now i do.
it leaves me with a feeling that i cannot explain.
when you speak the complete detailed truth, its just more easier for people to understand the way you work and that everyone feels and thinks about alot of things in the same way but they never discuss these things.
like trivial things as well..
for instance,when i feel thirsty, i go to the kitchen and stand in front of the all the plastic bottles filled with water, and i choose one which is half-filled and which is of a considerably smaller size than the others, so that it would not be very heavy, so it will be easier for me to drink, because i drink straight from the bottle, i do not pour it into a glass and i'm pretty sure, most of you'll do the same..
things like that.
you know.
i talk in this manner with Apurva and vice versa.
its like we understand the need for not wanting to do certain things at times.
like when we're talking on the phone for a long time and i feel like hanging up suddenly without any reason at all, i would just say "Apurva, im hanging up. Bye" and she says "Ok."
she doesnt ask me "why?" or "what happened?" or "huh?", and the other way round as well.
so people just have to understand that other people feel the same way as they do but at different times.

like the post i just wrote, its so messy, and im not happy with it, but i really dont give a shit because its the truth and its there for everyone to read and i know you know it as well, you just have to let it out and trust me, you'll feel lighter.